One Man’s Problem

We all have addictions and this is about them.

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

I want you to go away, pack up from my home.

I can’t stop myself, so I need a little help.

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

Why don’t you find a seat on a Greyhound bus.

Why don’t you take a walk so I don’t have to fuss.

There is no controlling me; will power flickered out.

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

The pain I have cuts right to the bone

The constant thump, thump, thump in my head is all I have known.

I want you to split, quit, hit the road; leave my abode

So I’m pleading for this chance

for you to go away and leave me alone.

My doctor says you are bad for my health

The way I got hooked was very much stealth.

The path that I walk I chose, nobody else.

So now you have to go away, leave me alone.

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

I want you to go away, pack up from my home.

I can’t stop myself, so I need a little help.

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

The pain I have cuts right to the bone

The constant thump, thump, thump in my head is all I have known.

I want you to split, quit, hit the road; leave my abode

So I’m pleading for this chance

for you to go away and leave me alone.

I’ve seen it all before; you’d think I’d oughta know.

Please just don’t remind me on and on and on.

So get the hell out of my life; this hate’s not right

I want you to go away, leave me alone.

The pain I have cuts right to the bone

The constant thump, thump, thump in my head is all I have known.

I want you to split, quit, hit the road; leave my abode

So I’m pleading for this chance

for you to go away and leave me alone.

It’s not like you ever cared, so I slap my head

I now have to come to grips with this & get on with my life.

Don’t want a forwarding number left by the telephone.

Just go away and leave me alone.

 

Calm for the Pain

I was not going to at all
But I tried and I failed
and I tried and I failed
And I'm sick of my back being against the wall.

Sure thought I was in the clear
Sure thought I was clear & could go
but as long as you are here
and I know that you are here
I write this letter and then I gotta blow

Calm from the pain
Calm from the pain
Thought it was on the wane
But it keeps getting stronger
Keeps staying longer
So I can keep calm from the pain.

Right now I wanna scream as the doubts begin   
and ebb in a way that makes me long for termination   
but it's just my imagination and
I'll be fine in a little while
Calm from the pain
Calm from the pain
Thought it was on the wane
But it keeps getting stronger
Keeps staying longer
So I can keep calm from the pain.

Don't you ever wonder
don't you ever wonder
how your world is all asunder
then it's too late, you give up
the file's corrupt

Right now I wanna scream as the doubts begin to flow   
and ebb in a way that makes me long for termination   
but it's just my imagination and
I'll be back in a short little while
calm from the pain
calm from the pain
thought it was on the wane
but it keeps getting stronger
staying longer

Stealth & Harmony

I’m the one without any bad intentions.

I’m the one who finally answered the call.

I’m not really sure you’re the one who counseled me

I’m just waiting to catch up after the fall

     of falls off walls of discontent and inconsistency.

 

I can’t see for forests’ and the trees blur.

I can’t tell you if the horse will come in.

I can’t & don’t want not to protect all of you.

What I’m really sure of is that I am unsure

     and insecure & dying to what esteem feels like.

 

(chorus)

there it goes it flys away and then comes back

as it had entered.

there it goes it’s on the street it’s looking back

and now it’s centered

hey, can it be that pretty soon there just won’t be

any mystery?

is it true you’ve visit here was short and that

your message has ended?

 

 

There’s a pattern to the minds’ meanders’.

There’s a pattern to the sheer loonacy.

There I go trying to fake in-tel-I-gencia.

When you buy the store it comes equipt with

     the shakes and ticks and cement bricks to build the bunker strong.

 

It’s a wave of warmth I’m feeling.

It’s a wave of stealth & har-mo-ny.

There’s a cave I go to when I feel I must get high.

And although it has been years of fears the piece just fit

     and split into as my ego alters my reactions.

 

(chorus)

there it goes it flys away and then comes back

as it had entered.

there it goes it’s on the street it’s looking back

and now it’s centered

hey, can it be that pretty soon there just won’t be

any mystery?

is it true you’ve visit here was short and that

your message has ended?

 

Flyin Hi, Flyin Low

You come smiling your way

Smiling your way to the other side of town

Took me under your wing

And you showed me around.

There was a girl, sittin next to me

A miserable get, she hadda go

So now I’m riding with you

Flying hi, flyin low

 

There was a time I’d run an hide

But not now, not with you on my side

 

Look at the people out there

Look at the people who don’t have a clue

We just point at them and laugh

What’re we supposed to do?

There was a guy,  phonin’ into you

That  old man pulled a scam

So now I’m riding with you

Flyin hi, flyin low.

 

There was a time I’d run and hide

But not now, not with you on my side.

 

As we prepare to take off I make sure I’m buckled in

Because with you in the pilot seat it’s gonna be quite a spin

I open my eyes while in the bright, blue sky when your voice pipes in

“Come along, come with me I’ll take ya where ya wanna go.”

“Happy you chose to come along flyin hi and flyin low”

 

I’m just a real lucky man

I’m a real lucky man to be with you

Gonna just pinch myself

And then schedule a rendezvous

We looked good, so damm good

In the mirror and in the pool

I’m gonna be riding with you

Flyin hi and flyin low

It’s Not Allowed

Quick story: Posted this a bit ago and then I get an email from someone who saw this on here. He asked if he could move a few things around, which he did and I approved. What you see here is Yan Terrien’s great assistance in the re-write. Please come back over the next few days to see some other exciting things regarding this piece. Thank you. Peace.

 

I want to see you
I want to see you
I want to see you but it’s not allowed

I want to hold you
I want to hold you
I want to hold you but it’s not allowed

Just my mind in obsess
In endless emptiness
Why have you been so ? Lord it’s not allowed

Just my mind in obsess
In endless emptiness
Why have you been so ? Lord it’s not allowed

I want to touch you
I want to touch you
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

I want to feel you
I want to know you
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

Just my mind in obsess
In endless emptiness
Why have you been so ? Lord it’s not allowed

Just my mind in obsess
In endless emptiness
Why have you been so ? Lord it’s not allowed

Oh God I want to
Oh God I want to
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

Oh God I want to
Oh God I want to
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

Oh God I want to
Oh God I want to
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

Oh God I want to
Oh God I want to
I want to touch you but it’s not allowed

Glory

It happens during nitefall when the darkness steals the show.

A feeling of warmth enshrouds me & I lose  control.

It all seems so easy if I surrender up my soul.

The face within the mirror cast a doubt on being whole.

 

Glory, glory, glory to the voices that I hear.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever holds me near.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever leads the way.

Glory to the driving force that gets me thru my day.

 

 

 

It’s an unexpected sequence that manages to unfold

I’ve always kept it hidden, fearful of some big, black hole.

You can’t deny a power that is almost a possess

So I decide to ride it as a form of a confess.

 

Glory, glory, glory to the voices that I hear.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever holds me near.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever leads the way.

Glory to the driving force that gets me thru my day.

 

Call it a mantra, call it a crutch

It’s better that I handle this

Than to lose touch

 

 

I’ve been bottled up for so long compression gas about to fly.

You’ve done lot I thank you ma’am but I’ve just idled by.

The choice I have to make is almost  not mine to make at all

I finally found that faith in me and I’m answering the call.

 

Glory, glory, glory to the voices that I hear.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever holds me near.

Glory, glory, glory to whoever leads the way.

Glory to the driving force that gets me thru my day.

Fade To Grey

This isn’t me, it isn’t you

But we stand up all the time and chew

Up the time we need

And still not get it right.

Now I know from where you stand

I’d offer to you my extended hand

But you’d slap it back

In my face; call it a night.

So why on earth do we not

Just walk away

So why on earth do we not

Just fade to grey….fade away.

There was a time I heard before

But it’s a lie, a house of straw

In flames as is

Your twisted compromise

It’s time to settle as we always do

With nothing we want but

With what we take

And it’s driving me to die.

So why on earth do we not

Just walk away

So why on earth do we not

Just fade to grey….fade away.

At the end it’s up to you to

Make it right or make

It wrong and do what you do

And I’m just dead to you.

So why on earth do we not

Just walk away

So why on earth do we not

Just fade to grey….fade away.

I See Your Face

 

Walking thru I see your face
Seen it before in another time and place
We’ve lived, we’ve died, we’ve come back again
And now it’s time to evolve again.

Can’t – explain- the noise within these walls
It’s disturbing and it’s free
It’s you and it’s me
It’s what just has to be.

Bring me back, bring me back and I’ll
Be there for you
You know it to be true
We’ll be back again
My one and only friend

Walking thru I see your face
Seen it before in another time and place
We’ve lived, we’ve died, we’ve come back again
And now it’s time to evolve again.

Two like us have just no where to go
Ride the storm and see
Where we will finally be
No rest, it’s plain to see

Walking thru I see your face
Seen it before in another time and place
We’ve lived, we’ve died, we’ve come back again
And now it’s time to evolve again

 

Maximum Care

I’m seeking maximum care, maximum care
I’m seeking maximum care from you
(2X)

I’m meeting her when I can
her old man says it’s OK.
It’s been so sweet & so rare
I wish we could meet every day.
I’m seeking maximum care,
Maximum care with you.

I cannot put into words
how I feel for this girl.
Just the thought of her now
Makes my feet start to curl.
She’s been mine ever since
it seems like forever, sir.
Gotta get in my car
Gotta drive to see her.

Chorus

I get a break from my work
& then I give her a call.
I hafta rush over there
before I hit the wall.
It’s just as advertised
it’s immaculatly clean.
Right before we start up
I have to grease the machine.

Chorus

Pick up the paper I read
about how this place where I go
caters to all of my needs.
Then I go have a dinner
that my loving wife made.
And then I hand her what’s left
of all the money I made.
Maximum care, I’m seeking maximum care
I’m seeking maximum care with you
Chorus

Not Going Back Anymore

Thought I was done with you
thought I was free
years have just trickled by
But I’m young and I’m clean.
Was offered a ride one day
Saw rain and I just jumped on in
But the rain clouds were found inside
So I stopped and jaw dropped
and tore ass heading faster

Now I’m not going back to go back there again
Was happy you’re gone and you’re not
knocking at my door my old friend
Did I just call you ‘friend”?
Rather my life were to end
So now it’s time to end this ride
before I’m a dead end.

Took myself home and
started to write.
Thought my keyboard would run out
because of the fright.
But then the words came out
I fell to the floor and
started to cry and I shouted
“How dare you enter my head
and mess my life one again.”

Now I’m not going back to go back there again
Was happy you’re gone and you’re not
knocking at my door my old friend
Did I just call you ‘friend”?
Rather my life were to end
So now it’s time to end this ride
before I’m a dead end.

I’m closed off, keep away, all of you, now.
I’ll just turn you away, rape my mind
I’m just killing you now.

All at once I know that
I’ll be fine, yeah, alright
But next time when I walk
in the rain I’ll just walk on by
I won’t be gettin in any old car
rather be drunk by myself
in some dreary old bar
I’ll get by on my own where I find
solace and measure time.

Not going back anymore
Not going back anymore.
No, no
Not going back anymore.